So one of the things I havent done recently is blog!
And in all honesty, for once I dont have a few blog posts in my mind as well. It pretty much is, too busy to think phase, or I can honestly say- No motivation to write!
I am half contemplating closing the blogs, or just leaving them, or making it private for the three-five loyal readers I have left. I haven’t made up my mind.
Though I love chronicling V's years, chit chats and developmental milestones, I am somehow not enjoying the writing part of it.
Recently I was going over some scrap books I had made for V in her first year. It felt good to go over the material. It made me think, its nice to capture it in some form. I am too lazy to make a book for each year, writing felt easier. But at the same time, just 'publicly' writing about it has me in a limbo!
I will figure it out in the next few weeks. I am hoping to at least.
Blogging helped me when I needed it most- When i was new in the parenting world, had a lot of friends but not mom-friends. You know the ones who understand- its okay to have no freaking clue about this parenting thing. We are in it together. I met a lot of people, read countless blogs and got this re-assuring feeling- It's okay. You are a lot of things at any given time and being a mom is one of them. There is no right or wrong, you slowly start figuring it out. There will be working moms, stay at home moms, there will be comparisons, kids tantrums, kids understanding. But with blogging and more importantly with reading other blogs, meeting other moms, I realised- it falls into place. Slowly but surely.
And Sumit reassures me all the time: 'You will be best parent for your child'
There are a lot of milestones to capture, a lot of V to be written, new revelations, new contemplations, new realisations. I get all that. For now, I am just thinking about the next steps. I may continue writing, I may not.
I did start the blog(s) on an impulse. My next steps may be an impulse. For now I will leave this post- in a limbo- just like my blog!